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Wow. That was.... very intense.

I read this last night - or rather, this morning, around 5-6 AM, and then as I tried to sleep the feeling this fic gave me just wouldn't go away.

I loved this story. it was very well thought and played out. Not too slow, not too fast, characterization was good, and the imagery was awesome.

When reading certain parts I kind of wished I was an artist, because damn, I have to say this again, the imagery really was awesome, and I really wanted fanart for those parts too. However, staring at the fanarts those incredible artists created was more than enough to soothe me. (besides, they chose to illustrate some other passages that I loved)
The descriptions of movements and such just flowed, which was extremely pleasant to read.

I loved how things developped between them, how Kanda dealt (or tried to?) with it, and I loved Alexander too (for some reason. Don't ask me. i just simpathized with him, even if he doesn't have much 'screen time' XD)

And I was loving all this, forcing myself to stay awake until I finished reading it, and I was loving the end as well, but then the way it ended...

His friendliness, his stubbornness, his laugh; all of it reminded me so much of him...

Of Alma.

I don't know if it's really there or if it's just me, but I got a very uncomfortable feeling in my chest at this comparison, at the very, very end of it all. Maybe it's not important, maybe nothing deeper is meant, but it was 6 AM and I felt really troubled, and that didn't fade when I tried to go to sleep. I can't remember what I dreamed of, but it had this restless feeling to it. XD
Now, after a few much needed hours of sleep, I re-read it, and yet I still don't know how to feel about this particular moment. *is very slow* XD

Nevertheless, i lovedlovedloved this fic to bits, and I'll probably re-read it from now on whenever I feel like having some KandaxAllen. XD

And I have to congratulate the artists again. I loved your works :)

Hahaha, thank you for all your kind words. Intense was definitely what I was going for. xD And I get the whole reading-at-6-am-and-feeling-a-little-crazy thing--I do that all the time, too. xD

What happens to me a lot when I'm reading, whether it's my own writing or someone else's, is that same thing: I wish I was an artist. Because there are so many beautiful ways to create images in someone's head, and it becomes so real, you can just see it, and touch it, and smell it... I do love my overly-sensory descriptions. xD

I. KNOW. I often found myself squeeing over Alexander. He was a very successful creation, I'm very proud of him. He's so adorable~<33333 x3

Yeah, in all honesty, I'm a bit uncertain about the ending as well. It just came to me out of nowhere one day, and though I didn't really fully understand it, I knew I wanted to use it in my story. I understand the feeling of restlessness you get from it; it's like, Alma is such a happy part of Kanda's past, and so if Allen reminds him of Alma, it must mean that Allen makes him happy, right? But then there's this little tugging voice at the back of your mind that says, "But the thing with Alma ended in a massacre..." So. Feel not slow, the author doesn't even understand its meaning. xD

I love this fic, too. It took hours and hours of my hard labor to create it, and when all is said and done, it was worth it. ^_^ I consider this to be my best work so far. =D

And yes, for the record--because I've neglected to say this already--I absolutely ADORE the fanart. I feel so lucky to have artists as talented as these three who will draw pieces like these. They just encompass everything that I wanted the readers to feel at these specific points, and to see such beautiful manifestations of these scenes makes everything worthwhile. So thank you to nayru774, sketchymatteh, and jojo_kun~<3 You guys are made of epic awesome. xD

I had to take a deep breath after reading this fic, this as got to be one of the best fics I ever read.

I love the drawings too, great job guys <3

awwww...i love it!!!

beautifully written!!!!

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I just LOVE it !! really ! how you write, the differents scenes past and present, Lavi and Lenalee (even Link...) good work ! bravo.